It’s been a trying last 4 weeks or so. A month ago, I thought today was going to be the first day I woke up in a new state. Now everything is different. It’s been a stressful experience, to say the least. Last week I started experiencing physical manifestations of that stress. Tight throat, feeling full after only eating a little bit, and most unpleasant was the feeling that I was disconnected from my body; almost like I was having an out-of-body experience about 6 inches above and behind my own head.

I briefly considering trying to go see a psychologist, just to say “Hey, I know what’s wrong, and I know it will pass, but could I have some Paxil or Xanax in the meantime?” Friends warned me that going down that road with SSRIs is a slippery slope though, and I think they’re probably right. Best thing would be to just ride it out, and I had a great weekend of frivolity; two days of climbing outside, and I’m feeling a lot more centered today. The weather should cooperate this week as far as riding in, too, which always makes me feel great.